The battery on my computer is going to die. I'll have to make this quick.
Walked for 1 hour today. Still dragging. Went to a friends house and didn't bring my shakes. Figured I wouldn't be there long. I ended up staying for 4 hours. Thank god, my friend did the program once and had some shakes to give me.
Drank 4.5 shakes today. Spiced it up with butterscotch pudding!! Will write more later.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Liquid Fast - Day One
Day one of the Doctor supervised liquid fast is drawing to a close. I found it to be easy to do while at work. The minute I went to get the kids around 3:30 it started to get hard. It has been a battle of the wills all night. The naughty me that wants to eat the left over chinese food in the fridge. Just start pouring it into my mouth. I want to eat the french fries left over on my daughters plate!!
They say it will get better...it will get easier. The first 4 or 5 days is the hardest. Its not as easy as I thought it was going to be. Is any diet? This one however is 800 calories a day!!!
My stinkin' blender broke!! You must have a blender or the shakes are lumpy. It is much better to have a blender. The shakes are smooth and creamy if they are in the blender. Yesterday at the meeting with the 3 amigos they gave me a ton of recipes that I can do with the shakes to try and spice it up. There is also a chicken soup that I can have. I didn't buy that...figured I would dive in and have just the shakes. When I lose the first 20lbs, I will reward myself by getting the chicken soup. What a reward huh?
I have to have a bunch more blood work. My thyroid, my blood sugar. The EKG machine broke down while they were testing my heart. Figures...seems to be a trend starting. Something doesn't want me to do this fast. It is challenging me. Well, just so you know. I will win. So kiss my gigantic rump.
So, once you drink the shakes you really do not feel hungry. They recommend that you drink 2 quarts of water a day. So that helps as well. I'm trotting to the bathroom so many times I'm starting to carve a trail in the rug from my desk to the bathroom. Imagine what that will look like after I lose the 70lbs!!
There are also vitamins that come with the shakes. They are not as big as many vitamins that I've taken and not as small as others. I have to drink lots of water with the vitamins as they make me feel sick to my stomach. That has been typical for me all of my life with vitamins. I'm not sure what is in it to do that but they always have.
I have to drink 5 shakes a day. I can have more if I'm hungry. It is 8:22 and I just drank my last shake. I tried to have one at 8:30 then again 11:30 then again and 3:30 then again 6:30 and then again right before I go to bed. 1 shake every 3 hours so that my metabolism stays up.
I'm also supposed to burn 2500 calories doing exercise a week. They said not to go hog wild and do that in the beginning. You will not find me trying to be a super star and hitting that target for awhile. I think it is enough that I'm consuming 800 calories a day! Forget getting out and moving.
So that is it. Day One Down! Day Two coming up.
They say it will get better...it will get easier. The first 4 or 5 days is the hardest. Its not as easy as I thought it was going to be. Is any diet? This one however is 800 calories a day!!!
My stinkin' blender broke!! You must have a blender or the shakes are lumpy. It is much better to have a blender. The shakes are smooth and creamy if they are in the blender. Yesterday at the meeting with the 3 amigos they gave me a ton of recipes that I can do with the shakes to try and spice it up. There is also a chicken soup that I can have. I didn't buy that...figured I would dive in and have just the shakes. When I lose the first 20lbs, I will reward myself by getting the chicken soup. What a reward huh?
I have to have a bunch more blood work. My thyroid, my blood sugar. The EKG machine broke down while they were testing my heart. Figures...seems to be a trend starting. Something doesn't want me to do this fast. It is challenging me. Well, just so you know. I will win. So kiss my gigantic rump.
So, once you drink the shakes you really do not feel hungry. They recommend that you drink 2 quarts of water a day. So that helps as well. I'm trotting to the bathroom so many times I'm starting to carve a trail in the rug from my desk to the bathroom. Imagine what that will look like after I lose the 70lbs!!
There are also vitamins that come with the shakes. They are not as big as many vitamins that I've taken and not as small as others. I have to drink lots of water with the vitamins as they make me feel sick to my stomach. That has been typical for me all of my life with vitamins. I'm not sure what is in it to do that but they always have.
I have to drink 5 shakes a day. I can have more if I'm hungry. It is 8:22 and I just drank my last shake. I tried to have one at 8:30 then again 11:30 then again and 3:30 then again 6:30 and then again right before I go to bed. 1 shake every 3 hours so that my metabolism stays up.
I'm also supposed to burn 2500 calories doing exercise a week. They said not to go hog wild and do that in the beginning. You will not find me trying to be a super star and hitting that target for awhile. I think it is enough that I'm consuming 800 calories a day! Forget getting out and moving.
So that is it. Day One Down! Day Two coming up.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
2 days of food left!
I start the HMR, medically supervised liquid fast on August 30. The program I'm participating in is called "Healthfast" through the Concord Hospital, in Concord NH.
I have 2 days of food left until I'm on liquids for awhile. Possibly 6 months or more!
I gave it a dry run last week so that I could wrap my head around what I would be doing. I've been nervous that I would be hungry, or craving food while I'm in the program. I have to say that I wasn't. It wasn't as difficult as I had imagined. I drank clear coffee in the morning. No cream, no sugar. BLACK! That is hard as I've always drowned out the coffee taste with french vanilla cream and splenda. I'm not sure if I will be allowed to drink coffee at all.
The shakes are dreadful if you don't blend them up. Putting the powder in the water and attempting to "stir" it in is a nightmare. I used the the magic bullet and it was nice and creamy and so much better. I even blended in a little coffee in the morning shake. Not sure if that will be allowed or not..but it was good. After my dry run I didn't want to go back to eating like a pig. I wanted to stick with it, but I'm also nervous that I won't weigh in enough when I go for the induction to the program tomorrow afternoon. I'm borderline as is. You must have a BMI of 34 or higher. Mine is 34.
I also had a little wake up call after having my blood drawn last week. I'm on a medication called "claravis" for acne. Yup, I'm a fattie and I have acne. I have to have my blood drawn once a month to check a bunch of different thing. After 3 previous draws my levels had been drawn. I finally go up to my permanent dose of claravis and my triglicerides go way up. In the beginning the Doctor told me that this medicine might uncover underlying issues. That it may bring issues that are looming to the fore front. Being obese it seems a natural that my tris would show up. So, if I don't bring my tris down by my next draw they will lower my meds. I don't want that to happen!! My skin is looking great! I'm hoping with the weightloss that it will start to look even better.
So, I have a little motivation to also lose the weight. I'm ready. After my high tris I have been much more conscious of what I put into my mouth. It is hard to imagine extra fat being pumped through my blood stream and into my heart and veins. I'm doing that to myself. It turns my stomach.
I'm in Vegas right now! Surrounded by delicous food everywhere I turn. It has been difficult to turn the other cheek. I haven't been successful a couple of times. But I didn't feel really good after I ate that high fat crap. I had the buffet at the Rio yesterday. I felt like crap all day afterwards. Not worth it. I had fruit and soup from whole foods last night for dinner. My body thanked me for that and I slept great last night without taking sleeping meds.
I'm anxious to get home. I miss my family. It has been really nice to sleep in this gorgeous bed and take tubs in the gigantic tub. I'm ready to get home to my grubby little house and business. My crazy little kiddos and my husband. I'm ready to start the next chapter in my life. I'm really ready. I know it will not be easy. I know that eating is not the only problem that I have. I stuff myself for other reasons and I'm ready to figure out why. I want to get healthy. I'm not healthy.
Two Days left till I start my transformation. I'm excited and nervous. I have tried so many different diets and failed. I don't want to fail again.
Tomorrow night I meet with the three amigos. I'll report in after that.
I have 2 days of food left until I'm on liquids for awhile. Possibly 6 months or more!
I gave it a dry run last week so that I could wrap my head around what I would be doing. I've been nervous that I would be hungry, or craving food while I'm in the program. I have to say that I wasn't. It wasn't as difficult as I had imagined. I drank clear coffee in the morning. No cream, no sugar. BLACK! That is hard as I've always drowned out the coffee taste with french vanilla cream and splenda. I'm not sure if I will be allowed to drink coffee at all.
The shakes are dreadful if you don't blend them up. Putting the powder in the water and attempting to "stir" it in is a nightmare. I used the the magic bullet and it was nice and creamy and so much better. I even blended in a little coffee in the morning shake. Not sure if that will be allowed or not..but it was good. After my dry run I didn't want to go back to eating like a pig. I wanted to stick with it, but I'm also nervous that I won't weigh in enough when I go for the induction to the program tomorrow afternoon. I'm borderline as is. You must have a BMI of 34 or higher. Mine is 34.
I also had a little wake up call after having my blood drawn last week. I'm on a medication called "claravis" for acne. Yup, I'm a fattie and I have acne. I have to have my blood drawn once a month to check a bunch of different thing. After 3 previous draws my levels had been drawn. I finally go up to my permanent dose of claravis and my triglicerides go way up. In the beginning the Doctor told me that this medicine might uncover underlying issues. That it may bring issues that are looming to the fore front. Being obese it seems a natural that my tris would show up. So, if I don't bring my tris down by my next draw they will lower my meds. I don't want that to happen!! My skin is looking great! I'm hoping with the weightloss that it will start to look even better.
So, I have a little motivation to also lose the weight. I'm ready. After my high tris I have been much more conscious of what I put into my mouth. It is hard to imagine extra fat being pumped through my blood stream and into my heart and veins. I'm doing that to myself. It turns my stomach.
I'm in Vegas right now! Surrounded by delicous food everywhere I turn. It has been difficult to turn the other cheek. I haven't been successful a couple of times. But I didn't feel really good after I ate that high fat crap. I had the buffet at the Rio yesterday. I felt like crap all day afterwards. Not worth it. I had fruit and soup from whole foods last night for dinner. My body thanked me for that and I slept great last night without taking sleeping meds.
I'm anxious to get home. I miss my family. It has been really nice to sleep in this gorgeous bed and take tubs in the gigantic tub. I'm ready to get home to my grubby little house and business. My crazy little kiddos and my husband. I'm ready to start the next chapter in my life. I'm really ready. I know it will not be easy. I know that eating is not the only problem that I have. I stuff myself for other reasons and I'm ready to figure out why. I want to get healthy. I'm not healthy.
Two Days left till I start my transformation. I'm excited and nervous. I have tried so many different diets and failed. I don't want to fail again.
Tomorrow night I meet with the three amigos. I'll report in after that.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Amping Up
6 months. When it comes to Christmas or Birthdays or even a vacation, 6 months comes along so friggin' fast. I mean, I'm not ready for Christmas. Unless you are the worlds most organized person or you are regifting what you got last year, then YOU are not ready for Christmas either. You, like most us (ME) will not get ready for Christmas until a couple of weeks before. I won't go out on "BLACK FRIDAY" because I don't think waiting in line for 2 hours for $25 off is worth it. Maybe if it is $100 off. I have a hard time with self-inflicted torture. I consider lines and seas of people torture.
So, 6 months is what I'm going to attempt. I've tried weight watchers, atkins, the GI diet, the cabbage soup diet, the south beach diet. This time I'm going balls to the walls. I'm doing the liquid fast. Medically supervised. I have a team of people I meet with once a week. A nutristionist, a medical Dr., and food addiction counselor. I'm going to give it 6 months.
For this fast I have to have a physical and blood work done. So I've had to the opportunity to really think about it. My physical is not until July 8th. My blood work is done. Once I get my blood work done then the 3 amigos will meet with me and I will begin.
The shake that I'm going to be drinking is the HMR-800. It is going to be about 830 calories. It comes in vanilla and chocolate. I've tried both. Neither of them make me scream for more. I'm imagining that after a week or so of strict discipline and comsumption of these shakes that I will start to crave them. Like anything...I've gone off of diet soda and only drank water. After a week I really wanted to have water and not the soda.
Why am I doing this? Because I do the best when I have the least amount of options. Choosing between vanilla and chocolate is pretty limiting. I do not cook. Half of my problem is that I wait to eat until I'm so hungry I will eat anything in my path. There isin't an inbetween for me. I don't really eat until I'm in need of something and something fast. Since I don't cook and never will, I have to grab something quick. Look, I know you are proably thinking these are excuses. I know myself. I know what I will do and what I won't do. I've tried the diets that require all of this cooking to eat healthy. I won't do it. I do not like to cook. Nothing anyone can do will convince me to like to cook. I don't like it. I don't want to cook at all.
How will I, if successful, keep the weight off. I don't know. How would I with any other diet?
I'm banking on the 3 amigos. I'm banking on their support and knowledge of helping the porky become thin. They have helped hundreds of people lose weight. I do not suspect that I'm much different than anyone else they have encountered. I do not pretend to be some specialty case.
Here are my stats. 5'7 female. 33 years old. 228 pounds.
I can walk. I enjoy walking. I will even jog a bit when feeling inspired. I lack the motivation. I need to see quick results. So, I'm giving it 6 months and I'm amping up to start this diet next week. I'm not sure which day...but one of them will be the last day I have solid food for 6 months.
So, 6 months is what I'm going to attempt. I've tried weight watchers, atkins, the GI diet, the cabbage soup diet, the south beach diet. This time I'm going balls to the walls. I'm doing the liquid fast. Medically supervised. I have a team of people I meet with once a week. A nutristionist, a medical Dr., and food addiction counselor. I'm going to give it 6 months.
For this fast I have to have a physical and blood work done. So I've had to the opportunity to really think about it. My physical is not until July 8th. My blood work is done. Once I get my blood work done then the 3 amigos will meet with me and I will begin.
The shake that I'm going to be drinking is the HMR-800. It is going to be about 830 calories. It comes in vanilla and chocolate. I've tried both. Neither of them make me scream for more. I'm imagining that after a week or so of strict discipline and comsumption of these shakes that I will start to crave them. Like anything...I've gone off of diet soda and only drank water. After a week I really wanted to have water and not the soda.
Why am I doing this? Because I do the best when I have the least amount of options. Choosing between vanilla and chocolate is pretty limiting. I do not cook. Half of my problem is that I wait to eat until I'm so hungry I will eat anything in my path. There isin't an inbetween for me. I don't really eat until I'm in need of something and something fast. Since I don't cook and never will, I have to grab something quick. Look, I know you are proably thinking these are excuses. I know myself. I know what I will do and what I won't do. I've tried the diets that require all of this cooking to eat healthy. I won't do it. I do not like to cook. Nothing anyone can do will convince me to like to cook. I don't like it. I don't want to cook at all.
How will I, if successful, keep the weight off. I don't know. How would I with any other diet?
I'm banking on the 3 amigos. I'm banking on their support and knowledge of helping the porky become thin. They have helped hundreds of people lose weight. I do not suspect that I'm much different than anyone else they have encountered. I do not pretend to be some specialty case.
Here are my stats. 5'7 female. 33 years old. 228 pounds.
I can walk. I enjoy walking. I will even jog a bit when feeling inspired. I lack the motivation. I need to see quick results. So, I'm giving it 6 months and I'm amping up to start this diet next week. I'm not sure which day...but one of them will be the last day I have solid food for 6 months.
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